Codependency is learned - learned inaccurate information that you're in some way not enough, that you don't matter, that your feelings are wrong, or that you don't deserve respect. These are the false beliefs that most codependents grow up with. They may not have been told these things directly, but have inferred it from behavior and attitudes of family and friends and events. Often these beliefs get handed down for generations. Changing them isn't easy and is difficult to do on your own, because it's hard to see others, let alone yourself, through a lens that's different than the one you grew up with.
Usually, people aren't conscious of these beliefs about themselves. The 19th Century neurologist Jean-Martin Charcot, the father of hypnosis, wrote that if there were a conflict between the will and the unconscious, the unconscious would always prevail. This explains what drives codependents' behavior and why we often fail to carry out our best intentions or act upon what we know is right. Charcot had a great influence on Freud, who studied with him.
Codependents have many fears and anxieties based upon false ideas about themselves and others. For example, many think that making a mistake is unacceptable and shameful. They become anxious about taking risks, trying something new, or expressing their opinion, because they're afraid of failure or looking foolish. Most don't realize that they unconsciously believe that they're unlovable, unlikeable, flawed or somehow inadequate. Even if they're aware of these false beliefs, they're convinced of their truth. As a result, they're anxious about revealing who they are, and please, control, or impress others so that they'll be loved and not rejected. Still other codependents withdraw from people, rather than risk abandonment. People judge themselves based upon their erroneous beliefs and imagine others are judging them, too. Sometimes, I witness one spouse claim the other is criticizing him or her, when that isn't the case. In fact, amazingly, this can even happen when the so-called "critical" words are in fact complementary!
The false belief about unworthiness undermines codependents' self-esteem and security and has serious consequences in their lives. They lack confidence and self-trust, live in doubt, and continually second-guess themselves. Many don't feel worthy of being in a position of authority or having success, or even happiness. Those who are convinced that they're bad can end up in relationships with people who are emotionally or physically abusive, which reinforces and worsens their low self-esteem. At a conscious level, they may be indignant and think that they deserve better, but still they stay and try to get the abuser to approve of them. Some stay because they believe the abuser "loves" them, which helps them overcome their belief that they're unlovable or that no one else will.
Similarly, many codependents have repeated relationships with men or women who are emotionally, or even physically, unavailable. They don't feel that they deserve to be loved on a consistent basis. The unconscious belief is that "I have to win someone's love for it to mean anything." There may be opportunities for a relationship with someone loving and available, but they're not interested. Instead, they're excited about someone whose love they have to earn. They have to win it for it to count.
Codependents also don't believe they have rights or that their needs matter, especially emotional needs, such as for appreciation, support, kindness, being understood, and loved. Most will put others' needs ahead of their own, don't say "no" because they're afraid others will criticize or leave them, triggering their underlying belief in being inadequate and unlovable. They often give or do more in relationships or at work for this reason. Self-sacrifice causes codependents to feel unappreciated and resentful. They wonder why they're unhappy, never thinking it's because they're not getting their needs met. Moreover, because often they're not aware of their needs, they don't take steps to have them met. If they do know, they can't ask for what they want. It would feel humiliating. Instead, they don't take steps to meet their needs and expect others to do so - without disclosing them! These hidden expectations contribute to conflict in relationships.
Changing beliefs starts with awareness. You can become aware of your beliefs by paying attention to the way you talk to yourself.
Write down all the negative things you say to yourself. Often I see clients who are at first unaware of their inner voice, which I call the inner Critic, but after awhile, they discover it's controlling their moods and actions.
Note the gap between your intentions and actions.
Journal about this discrepancy and your interactions with others.
Analyze your beliefs motivating your behavior. Ask yourself where your beliefs came from.
The most important belief is that you can change. When I first began my recovery, my self-esteem and hope were so low that I didn't believe change was possible. This was reinforced by another myth. Growing up, I heard my mother repeat, "Show me a child of 7, and I'll show you the man," which I took this to mean that after 7 years old, I couldn't change. Actually, new research confirms that personality can change, and many studies show a strong link between personality, well-being, and health. People in 12-Step programs and therapy experience this all the time. Your mind is a powerful, creative gift from God. Learn to use it to work for you, not against you.
©Darlene Lancer 2013
Darlene Lancer is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, author of Codependency for Dummies, and expert in relationships, codependency, and addiction. She has a broad range of experience, working with individuals and couples for 25 years. She is an author and frequent speaker. She maintains private practice in Santa Monica, CA and coaches internationally. For more information, see http://www.whatiscodependency.comto receive a FREE Report, "14 Tips for Letting Go," and find links to her books, Codependency for Dummies and ebooks, How to Speak Your Mind- Become Assertive and Set Limits and 10 Steps to Self-Esteem: The Ultimate Guide to Stop Self-Criticism.
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